My name is Conor McAuley and I write songs.. don’t really know what else to say, I guess you would want to hear why. ?
Growing up I’ve always been the kid on the outside, usually excluded from parties and group things, never really wanted to do anything crazy or dangerous and have always been one to just keep my head down. The only shining light; music. ?
Music has been my passion ever since I was really young, when I watched my dad playing guitar in his spare time and doing small gigs after his day job and doing that made me wonder how to do that, so I started.?
I’ve always listened to music to help myself get through bad times, because if I was having a bad day and didn’t have anyone to talk to about it, there would always be a song to reassure me that everything will be okay.?
I guess what I’m saying is that I write music for the kids who are being left out or the ones that feel like the dark skies will never clear, or the guy who’s just not too sure if he’s going to find the one. I don’t write music to tell people all that I know about the world because I don’t know that much at all, but I write with the hope that if someone feels like they’re alone, they put the headphones on, switch on one of my songs and feel every lyric as if it were their own.
- Screen name:
- Conor McAuley
- Member since:
- Oct 08 2019
- Active within 1 month
- Level of commitment:
- Very Committed
- Years playing music:
- Gigs played:
- Under 10
- Tend to practice:
- More than 3 times per week
- Available to gig:
- 6-7 nights a week
- Most available:
Highly influenced by artists such as the 1975, John Mayer, Great Big Sea and a little bit of the Eagles.
- Acoustic Guitar:
Equipment list is updating but currently I have my guitar and a pedal board. Equipment will be progressed very soon.
Choir Of The PBD
Choir Of The PBDJust some thoughts and feelings towards the whole situation at the minute I've always had a thing for harmonies so I thought for the last day of songwriting I'd get a few chords, let loose and see what happens haha Final day of the songwriting week! Thanks for listening, I love every single one of you that did :) ---Lyrics--- I'm on my own now But I take solace in knowing that you are too We're all acting rundown But we take for granted all the things we have to lose There's no one around me Because we keep the distance just to fix this uncertainty All I can be Is the added voice on top of this choir of the PBD *Harmonies* The water is clear The sky is looking pretty good now too They spread nothing but fear Even though we knew *More harmonies* *Oh my god more harmonies!*
Hidden In A Message
Hidden In A MessageWith this whole isolation thing I find texting... sucks! Made me start thinking about all of the things we hide within our messages and how much I overthink every single thing I send to someone. This whole quarantine has put life on pause, but hopefully things will look up after all this ends. Day 6 of the songwriting week! Hope you all enjoy it :) ---Lyrics--- A mirror for company A screen for support A voice just to keep me sane And keep me wanting more A record for comfort I got on the internet The records of my words Keep me in a constant state of regret I know I can never think to much about the words I use But the thought of us was hidden a message to you I keep acting reckless Like I've got nothing to lose Now I've been restless Losing sleep over the things I do I know I can never think to much about the words I use But the thought of us was hidden a message to you (x2)
Activist Of Love
Activist Of LoveSometimes I feel like not many people believe in things like destiny or finding 'the one'. It's an old fashioned way to look at it and not many people choose to believe in it, but it's what keeps me excited about life and gives me hope so I'm sticking with it! Day 5 of the songwriting week! Hope you all like it :) (Finally not using my face as the picture haha) ---Lyrics--- Walking down memory lane Isn't as nice as it sounds Sometimes I don't even know the name Of the person stealing all my lines Running down the corridor To you when I wanted more Was a stupid thing to do Tracking down the remedy To help me believe that we Can see things through If everybody's keeping track of it I don't want to know my place on the board Some may say I've been an activist of love To bide my time Some may say I'm preaching happiness And lonely just because I'm bored Some may fill me in on what I've missed But they don't even know That I've got you I guess it's true I know I don't really belong I've been waiting on these changes for far too long I start to doubt my dreams That I'll meet the one But you came into my life just to prove me wrong If everybody's keeping track of it I don't want to know my place on the board Some may say I've been an activist of love To bide my time Some may say I'm preaching happiness And lonely just because I'm bored Some may fill me in on what I've missed But they don't even know That I've got you (x2)
That's A Lie
That's A LieNo matter who we are, we lie. Some of us may lie to get out of bad situations, some may lie to get into them, but a lot of us will lie to avoid being vulnerable. It's hard to be honest, but honesty creates real moments with people that can sometimes change your life. If you like someone then tell them, if you think you need help then go get it, you might be surprised by the outcome. Full disclaimer - this is in no way a self-help thing, I know very little about mental health haha (if it helps then that's just a bonus!) I'm just telling my story Day 4 of my songwriting week Hope you all enjoy :) ---Lyrics--- To say you didn't like The way I'd sit and stare Well that's a lie To say I didn't mind How you'd play with your hair Well you'd be right To say you were my type If my type was perfection That'd be right To say I'd win the fight For your love and attention That's a lie I try my best To keep my lies to myself To say I'm fine And I'm alright That's a lie To say I'm being honest Is just a way to harm or deceive To say that I lack confidence Is a way to heal the wound that you made bleed I try my best To keep my lies to myself To say I'm fine And I'm alright To say you didn't like The way that I came over that could be right To say I didn't mind And walked away with pride Well that's a lie I try my best To keep my lies to myself To say I'm fine Well that's a lie
Notice MeAll of us have seen someone across the room, sitting in class or just wasn't met you yet that you wish would notice you too, get that starstruck look in their eyes and walk over to you. Things don't always work out that way, despite the weird title of the song it's what we're all wanting lol! Day 3 of the songwriter challenge!!! Hope you all enjoy :) ---Lyrics--- Say that I'm stuck in a rut Know that I'm going to do it But I don't know what to say You make me feel like I haven't done things right When you look the other way They tell you to try But I ask why Why does every instinct want to stay She passed me by The moment I decide To try and make her walk my way I'm frozen, paralysed, I realised Notice me I'm trying my best to make you Notice me I'm doing all I can so that you'll Notice me When I'm just about to stop I think about the day you might Notice me I could strum for hours and days But unless it pays You'll never know what it's for If I'm up on stage Or it's written on a page Then you'll never know it's yours I'm freezing, just let me in, I'm begging Notice me I'm trying my best to make you Notice me I'm doing all I can so that you'll Notice me When I'm just about to stop I think about the day you might Notice me
LongerA song that many of us unfortunately might relate to. In the majority of successful relationships and in all crushes, someone's been in the relationship longer. No one falls in love at the same time, and that moment before can feel like an eternity. Don't give up, it could be incredible. You just gotta wait a little bit longer. ---Lyrics--- I see it everywhere I look Two by two they parade my path Then I see you Buried in books But hidden behind the glass Months go by I haven't moved Then I wonder why you never knew my name My voice, or what I'd do But it stays the same so I guess it's through Please can your heart beat faster than mine Before we meet and before our time If love will keep us alive I'd be dying to try While your life unfolds I'll be standing by Now I'm awake I'm still afraid Numb but the same Because knowing your name Was my own mistake Please can your heart beat faster than mine Before we meet and before our time If love will keep us alive I'd be dying to try While your life unfolds I'll be standing by I've been in this longer You might never see But my mind belongs to her Even before we meet
Everything I've Done
Everything I've DoneA song about all of the things we do for the ones we love, or the ones we've wanted to love but couldn't. Almost like saying "Everything that I've done, has led to this moment." This is the 1st instalment of my songwriting week, Hope you enjoy :) ---Lyrics--- I'm awake I'm alright Now it's time to chase the light My subtle mistakes Don't know why I care Remember flawed attempts at fate When it ain't even there Everything that I've done Was all for you I'm chasing a ghost Something that's better than most Despite its cold, detached design I love the dopamine dose Just give me a sign Something that helps me align The different headlines of your time And mine Everything that I've done Was all for you Everything that I've done Every battle that I've won Every loss that I've come from Was all for you
Give Me A Sign
Give Me A SignJust a song about searching. Either desperately or calmly, we are all searching for the person to spend our lives with. Sometimes it can feel like it all fits together and other times it can feel as though there's no way to win. In all the uncertainty and all the self-doubt, I just want someone to Give Me A Sign. I hope you all enjoy! -Lyrics- I tried to say I lied When I first saw your face Hidden behind those deep blue eyes I knew I found my place Baby you know How to drive me wild But the moment that you said hello We had to say goodbye Give me a second to calm my nerves Give me a minute to find my words Give me a moment to take your breath away Because baby you've taken mine Give me just one more chance to see Who I am is who I need to be Because I've been here just searching all my life So Give Me A Sign You didn't miss me You barely even know Just how much you had an effect on me The moment you had to go I guess it's true "When you fall you really fall" But all I get for knowing you Is I'm awake just waiting for you to call Give me a second to calm my nerves Give me a minute to find my words Give me a moment to take your breath away Because baby you've taken mine Give me just one more chance to see Who I am is who I need to be Because I've been here just searching all my life So Give Me A Sign I found out that you're playing at The bar right next to mine But every word you're saying has me Clinging to every line Give me a second to calm my nerves Give me a minute to find my words Give me a moment to take your breath away Because baby you've taken mine Give me just one more chance to see Who I am is who I need to be Because I've been here just searching all my life So Give Me A Sign (Give Me A Sign)x2
Pale Blue Dot (Demo)
Pale Blue Dot (Demo)Here is the first demo of the year and to be honest it's different from what I've done before. I wanted to write something other than another love story or how hard it is being a teen, instead I wanted to write about the things going on in the world and how we need to get a little bit more perspective to truly understand how serious it all is. On February 14th, 1990 the NASA probe 'Voyager' (the one that f***ed away off outa the solar system) took one final picture of Earth from 6 billion miles away - This led the man Carl Sagan to write an incredible speech called the 'Pale Blue Dot' which I would suggest everyone read or listen to it. Anyway the point is, this is the only home we have. Our home is burning. I hope you all enjoy! --- Lyrics --- When the earth is bleeding We're not believing That it doesn't belong to us No it doesn't belong to us Even when there's fire spreading through our home And the remedy's known When there's fire that's burning down our home We're setting fire to a future we don't own You're a part whether you like it or not A tiny puzzle of a picture that makes us whole Everything we know and everything we forgot Is hidden here on this pale blue dot Called home The aggregate of our joy and suffering Where the love of your life might stumble in Where society will live and die But preventing the death will force us all to try You're a part whether you like it or not A tiny puzzle of a picture that makes us whole Everything we know and everything we forgot Is hidden here on this pale blue dot Called home Consider again that dot A little further and it's just a mote of dust Suspended in sunlight That's here, that's home That's us Consider again that dot A little further and it's just a mote of dust Suspended in sunlight That's here, that's home That's us You're a part whether you like it or not A tiny puzzle of a picture that makes us whole Everything you know and everything you forgot Is hidden here on this pale blue dot Called home You're a part whether you like it or not A tiny puzzle of a picture that makes us whole Everything we know and everything we forgot Is hidden here on this pale blue dot Called home You're a part whether you like it or not Don't be afraid to seem a bit naive Because suspended in a sunbeam Is our perfect, little pale blue dot Called home Our perfect, little pale blue dot called home
Maybe That's Ok
Maybe That's OkWhen everyone else is out there getting loaded every night, getting stoned or meeting loads of women/men while you're sitting in your room watching Netflix... that's OK. Not everyone is meant for that life, some people just don't like it and if you're one of the ones turning down drinks or being called the "buzzkill", just listen to this and hopefully it'll make you feel a bit better. (Because FYI, that's me... Don't even know if anyone feels the same but here we go anyway!) Never feel bad about your choices. It's your life, live it how you want to. I hope you're all well and really hope you enjoy the demo of my new song "Maybe That's Ok".
Hey are u awake?
Hey are u awake?Ever get those times where you write out a big long message to someone and freeze before hitting send? Ever delete the whole thing and write something else and freeze again? I've tried to capture the thoughts that paralyse me in that moment so hopefully others can be with me too in hitting the send button. I hope you enjoy this one :) -Lyrics- Hey are you awake I know, it’s kinda late Take time to contemplate Reply she makes me wait I wish I was told the answer Because now I have no clue I know that I can’t talk to her With no chances then I can’t lose How can I find a woman that’ll make me complete When in a crowded room I hardly speak Take time to make sure that my feelings are right Talk one to one with people that are all the same But when I find the one she can’t stay Take time to make sure that my feelings are right I hope I didn't freak you out I know I come on too strong In love I don't know what's allowed I know I've done something wrong Secretly I hoped you would stay I wish I was told the rules This game called love we play Theres a thousand ways that I can lose How can I find a woman that’ll make me complete When in a crowded room I hardly speak Take time to make sure that my feelings are right Talk one to one with people that are all the same But when I find the one she can’t stay Take time to make sure that my feelings are right Hey are you awake I know, it's 3am Last one then I'll let u be But I was wondering if you think about me
Step 5 (Acceptance)
Step 5 (Acceptance)This is a song for those who are facing any type of grief, either small scale or large. Facing any type of loss sucks, be it breaking up with the person you love, getting turned down from that job you wanted or losing a loved one. It can often feel confusing, and looking up the steps of it on the internet don't help because it seems as if step 4 last an eternity, when in reality all we need is each other to get us through. This one is a little deeper than most, but I hope you all enjoy my new tune "Step 5 (Acceptance)". Thank you! :) -Lyrics- Taken away just as fast as it came I know it’ll hurt at the start It hurts a little bit longer and you’ll cry a lot harder when you realise That this is the way they’ll remember your name Crashed against the wave Pain lets you know you’re alive Didn’t think much about it then But now, I realise Don’t take my word When I say that I’ll get by In my head I’m always asking why It’s gonna take time My heart will survive But why’s it taking so long To reach step 5 I thought that the music would help me I was told I should maybe see somebody A specialist, to make sense of this hard time Wish I would have known from the start Now I need to find a way to fix a broken heart Don’t take my word When I say that I’ll get by In my head I’m always asking why It’s gonna take time My heart will survive But why’s it taking so long To reach step 5 Step one was done but took a while Step two was cruel with bruises and a broken smile Step three had me tempted to reconcile By step four I certain that I couldn’t take more One step to go, then I won’t have to worry anymore Don’t take my word When I say that I’ll get by In my head I’m always asking why It’s gonna take time My heart will survive But why’s it taking so long To reach step 5
102 | 1975 (Cover)
102 | 1975 (Cover)Can't believe this song hasn't been on their Spotify yet (I think they had it on before, and I think they're doing it again) but just in the mean time, here is my cover of a beautifully written song by the 1975, played at 2am last night in an emotional, sleep deprived state. Enjoy!
Everything ChangesIn times where it feels like things are moving at a mile a minute, you sometimes just sit back and think about how much has really changed, for better or for worse. Sometimes you wish you could go back to day that were simpler, or are thankful that those days are over. Either way, everything changes.
Be My Mistake | 1975 (Cover)
Be My Mistake | 1975 (Cover)An absolutely beautiful song. After learning the lyrics and slowly learning this song, it became more and more powerful to me, and I could feel the emotion in every word and every strum. Matty Healy is a brilliant songwriter, and I hope to one day be just as insightful and present so much meaning in the music I write.
A Minute For You
A Minute For YouSometimes I just feel like I want to make the world stop for just a minute and put a pause on all of the issues and problems that are happening, so that I can spend another minute in your arms.
Sex | 1975 (Cover)
Sex | 1975 (Cover)Such a great acoustic song, so I figured I'd give it a go!
How Does This Make You Feel?
How Does This Make You Feel?Just a lil' tune about picking up the guitar, sitting beside the woman I love and just playing whatever came to me. I know it's really corny but I don't care, I like it xD I hope you all like it.
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall PassThis is just a song for when you're ever feeling bad and feeling as if a bad situation is never going to end, because always remember; "This Too Shall Pass". Depending on how this song does on this, I might upload to Spotify. Thank you everyone for listening and I hope you enjoy.